I love this song, it makes me question who I am, who I want to become, and what I’ want to be for others. It makes me think abouth the future, sometimes it scares me, but than again life is scary

The beginning of feeling old.


I’m 20 years old, yet I feel like I’ve been around for a long time.
The thought of growing old dawned at me when I became the head of the youth movement, where I spent nearly every other sunday afternoon or friday evening, since I turned 12 years old. Do I feel this way, getting old, because I received lots of responsibilities at once or because the routine of 8 years of, more or less, the same people, the same challenges, had made me feel like I’ve lived for decades or because I’m drawning in all the work or would all the drama be the cause?
Is it time for a change? Don’t get me wrong, I love my friends from the youth movement and I’m grateful, for all the amazing memories we share. But all I can think of lately is, if I’m not wasting other talents in me that i haven’t discovered yet, because i simply putt al my energy and time in this youth movement. Does that make sense? Believe me the feeling the children, friends can give you, is beyond description. To be able to give all those kids a second home, is fantastic. But maybe I’ve have outgrown my second home.